Ella Ray Kondrat

Bringing Myself Back Home 

 

You’ll only notice that I’m gone 

When you roll over, way past the dawn 

Over mountains I roam 

Bringing myself back home 

Bringing myself back home 

 

And I’m afraid of losing myself in you 

Boundaries undulate, dissolve into the pool 

Finding that I have no end 

Brings my love to the center again 

Brings my love for you, center again 

 

And sometimes you are soft and sweet 

And sometimes, cold and hard 

Sometimes you feel very near 

And sometimes, really far 

I don’t need to earn my love from you 

I just need to hold my own heart 

As it beats true 

Just need to hold my own heart 

As it beats its truth 

 

You’ll only notice that I’m gone 

When you roll over, way past the dawn 

 

 

Let Me Come 

 

Let me come 

To your gate 

I’ll wait 

I’ll tend your garden 

Until you invite me in 

 

Let us make 

A place, soft and safe 

Build a bed on the loom 

Where your flower 

Where your flower can bloom 

 

Let me come  

To your door 

I won’t ask more 

Than you’re ready for 

 

 

Hum to Your Heart 

 

Hum to 

Hum to 

Hum to 

To your heart 

To your heart 

 

Sing to 

Sing to 

Sing to 

To the moon 

To the moon 

 

 

I married columbus 

 

I know you better than you know yourself 

Wading in the water 

Wading in the water 

 

If I knew how it ends why did I let it start 

But we can’t not 

But we can’t not 

 

And I could hold 

Your darkness 

Your darkness 

Your darkness 

In my hands 

 

When I no longer fit my wedding band 

I threw it in the fire 

I threw it in the fire 

 

But first I had to find dry land 

Holding onto wire 

Holding onto barbed wire 

 

But I am not a flower 

To be choked 

To be choked 

To be choked 

By blind invaders 

 

And you know that it ends just the way it began 

With your hands 

With your hands 

With your hands around my throat 

 

 

Rub the Soles 

 

Rub the soles of their feet 

Touch, feel and caress 

Sit close with fleshing touching flesh 

 

Make them feel safe 

Say loving words 

Save them if you can 

Cry love on the world 

 

 

Luba 

 

Lantern burning through the night 

On our way to find 

The source of healing light 

 

Turn the burning down to glow 

Kneel you now down low 

Keep lifted your eyes 

 

Now that the path has turned to brush 

What will become of us? 

Wait here 

Whispering trembling open heart 

 

Listen 

She calls 

Luba 

She knows 

The way 

Home 

 

 

As You Are 

 

Still the mountains hold your footprints 

The breath 

Your parted lips 

The songs of joy 

The cries of grief 

As you unfold and unfold again 

Echoes of awakening 

The songs you wrote 

Scattered away 

 

As you are 

Come as yourself 

Exactly as you are 

As you are 

Come as yourself 

Exactly as you are 

 

Your feet, your hands, your fingertips 

Your open arms beckoning 

Your eyes held high 

To see see the sky 

Your belly folds, youre messy hair 

Your hips a churning everywhere 

Your lungs, your voice 

Caress the air 

 

As you are 

Come as yourself 

Exactly as you are 

As you are 

Come as yourself  

Exactly as you are 

 

 

Do You Mind 

 

Do you mind 

Breaking my heart a little bit 

I got a show tonight 

And I been feeling real content these days 

I’ve been drama free 

And light 

 

I’ve been drinking green smoothies every day 

I’ve been filling myself with positivity 

 

Oh well I saw you from afar 

You were stroking her hair 

Well that was solid gold 

Turn the breaking wheel on my soul 

 

Oh love, I want you to know 

There will never be another one like you 

 

So do you mind 

Breaking my heart a little bit 

I got a show tonight 

And I need to taste a little 

Blood on my lips 

While I sing these lines